Most of my time has been consumed with making new tiaras for Fancy Lady Industries, but I’ve done a couple of drawings and practiced a lot of uke.
A tiara that looks like short flowers made up of green crystals and vintage sequins accented with crystal points.
A tiara with five curved arcs, wrapped with small hematite cubes and accented with five crystal points.
A watercolour and ink illustration depicting a fat white woman with brown hair holding a pink flower reflected in the style of a Queen card in a deck of cards. A banner entwined with leaves and some twigs are in the background framing the vertically reflected figure.
A few of my pieces are on Society6 now if you are interested in prints.
A watercolour and ink illustration depicting 12 identical naked fat white women with brown hair, all draped/ piled on the central figure who looks exasperated.
I’ve been recording myself playing and singing every few days and posting them on you tube so I can track my progress throughout the year. This is At Seventeen, by Janis Ian. There’s a few more on my channel, if you’re interested!
I’ve been drawing more and more with markers lately, and not even the fancy alcohol based ones. I only have a few of those (some Copics but mostly Shin Han Touch pens) and the few I have are running out of ink fast. A couple of weeks ago I saw Office Works had a tub of 50 Faber Castell Connector Pens on sale so I scooped them up and have been merrily doodling away the last few weeks. The difference between alcohol and water based pens is huge, you can blend and layer ink with the alcohol markers but if you put too many layers of ink down with a water based marker you’ll pull up a bunch of paper fibres. So they aren’t a proper substitute but they’re the substitute I can afford. For the price of 50 connector pens I would only be able to buy two or three alcohol based markers! These drawings use both types of markers; and the ability to layer and blend alcohol markers is evident in the first drawing.
Marker drawing of two self portraits, both looking confused and in mid conversation.
Marker drawing of two fat people with gem adornments.
Marker drawing of a fat person with a large shining red gem for a heart.
My mother-in-law once said my drawings were rude and ever since then I’ve been self conscious about it. Considering a nude body as vulgar speaks of prudery and shame. I draw a collection of lines organised in a way that makes the brain conclude that it’s meant to represent a body, but there are other lines and shapes on these bodies that signify other things too. Art shouldn’t be read like a mirror, it’s more like a map. I really object to my drawings being read as titillating or erotic, as I’ve seen them put into that context on some tumblr blogs. It says a lot about the lack of respect for women’s bodies and the absolute disregard for consent, that an image of bare breasts is considered pornographic. I’m also reminded of all the boobs in ads targeted at men that are uncensored while images of breast feeding are considered offensive. I’m rolling my eyes directly at you, straight guys.
At first I wanted to draw empowering pictures but then I realised they were empty, almost lies. I’ve been avoiding my real self my whole life because I thought I wasn’t suitable. Confession is familiar, it keeps me in the dark; now I feel like it’s time to live transparently so I am drawing my secrets as if they were common knowledge.
Instagram of a pad with watercolour splotches and the text “Why would anyone choose to be ugly? Who gets to choose to be ugly?”
Watercolour and ink drawing of a fat white lady (me) in a ratty black bra and grey undies looking unsympathetic. Text says “Not for you.”
Watercolour and ink drawing of a fat white lady (me) wearing a green polka dot dress and sweating profusely, fanning herself with a notebook and wiping sweat from her brow.
Sometimes I’m astounded and depressed that we still have to talk about the male gaze.
A pen and marker drawing on transparent polymer sheets of a fat white lady with lilac hair wearing a swimsuit and sporting tattoos, with floating men and food in her stomach.
I slightly resent having to find words to accompany things I’ve drawn. I guess I draw things so I don’t have to find words. I’m trying to find a new way to express the monstrous ugliness inside me, how it is a normal/ neutral thing in my mind but a feared, castigated and hidden set of traits on a cultural level. How there are ugly things I can get away with because I am white (having straight hair that I don’t brush, being typically white and pale), and other things I can’t get away with because I am fat (dressing sloppily, not visibly reducing my fatness, taking up space). How I perform femininity in acceptable ways (I like crafts and flowers) and obscene ways (too much make up). In private spaces I am very comfortable doing my own thing in my own body, slouching, picking zits, pulling faces, sitting with my legs open, burping; yet in public spaces I am extra vigilant in policing my posture, demeanor, behaviour, and dress. I hate being uncomfortable, and I resent having to hem myself in to make other people comfortable. Surely our culture would be better off doing away with the discomfort, the niceties, the shaming, and focusing more on not being dicks to one another.
A self portrait of me with dark brunette hair, squeezing a zit on my stretch marked breast. A purse with a floral china pattern spills out to the left and around me, and a banner with “nice white lady” stretches over me. In the background is a pattern of pink and purple fuchsias, and a doily shape on the lower right.
A bar chart of my recent prints poll. Leading with 46 votes is Pastry Queen.
Thank you to everyone who voted in the prints poll, I had SO many responses it was overwhelming! Now I need to figure out how to approach selling prints. I may initially do this on a preorder basis just so I can build up enough money to stock prints on an ongoing basis. Or I might figure out another way to do it. I’m just a lady who draws pictures!
A watercolour and ink illustration of a fat white skinned woman with brown hair looking towards the donut on her forehead. A bright halo surrounds her head.
Speaking of, I drew this over the last few days after a conversation with my friend Lillian. Somehow we got onto the subject of donuts and baptisms and I said I’d baptise her and draw a donut on her forehead. Mmmmm blasphemy. Someone should fly me over to L.A so I can hang out with her, draw and laugh at her hilarity.
And finally, after about a year of neglect, I’ve updated my portfolio. Check it out and link it and pin it and do other social things with it, ok? OK!
An illustration of a naked fat girl making an "ok" sign with one hand. Text surrounding says "Big girls donut cry" with icing and sprinkles on the tops of the letters.
An illustration of a unicorn/ human whose horn spears a mint iced donut and whose lilac hair/ mane flips around in the wind. Text at the bottom says "I get what I want."
An illustration of a cow headed fat woman prancing, with a daisy spangled banner saying "Fat Cow" and another bit of text saying "Moo douchebag" down the bottom.
A digitally coloured illustration of a cow headed babe with flowing rose hair and a Fat Cow tattoo, surrounded by a billowing daisy spangled ribbon.
Another largely text free post with an unrelated post title. (I’ve been listening to Fleetwood Mac all day!)
Please note: I’m not taking commissions at the moment as I simply can’t concentrate for long enough. :(
Here are some places where you can buy my arts on things.
Spreadshirt – CafePress – Red Bubble
Just a short post to deposit some of my latest creative thingies. I look at these images and feel like they were all done by different people, the styles are so seemingly disparate, but I kind of feel like I’m either looking for a new direction or feeling the need to branch out. It’s handy to have different styles to explore certain things, and as an illustrator and designer it allows me to work on my versatility. I remember reading something Stefan Sagmeister said about not being so concerned with having one certain identifiable style because his work is mostly about ideas and designing to solve problems. I quite like that.
A digital illustration of Aisha, a brown skinned plus size babe, walking with her cat Joe against a twilight skyline that includes the CN Tower.
This portrait was commissioned by Aisha for the banner of her new blog. I’d never drawn a cat up to this point and was pretty amazed that I captured her cute Himalayan so well!
A coloured pencil and watercolour drawing of Domonique, a white skinned babe with long brown hair and wears a hat blue flowers with a bird and nest in it. She poses with one hand behind her head and the other in front of her dramatically made up face.
A gouache painting of clumps of purple/ blue flowers against green foliage that is made up of tiny triangles.
I started experimenting with gouache paints earlier in the week and ended up painting all these triangles of different colours to learn about the colours and how to control tones. Triangles have been pretty “cool” over the last few years but they’re also good for building up forms without thinking too hard. I like how if I blur my eyes slightly I can actually see hydrangeas. On the other hand, I could never get the trick of magic eye puzzles.