My parents have tried to instill in me the importance of setting goals but I am generally quite a foot-loose and fancy-free type of person. I’ve always floated through life content with pursuing knowledge and experiences organically because life has always seemed to be the sort of thing best served largely unplanned with a side of wondrous wide-eyed whimsy.
For me goals have either been quite nebulous (see: be a rockstar and become Michael Jackson’s best friend) or fairly specific (see: learn to crochet, get my art in a gallery or oh-god-let-me-just-survive-this-awful-anxiety-until-I-can-get-home-and-hide-in-bed.) When I think about it I am pretty good at achieving the latter and quite okay with leaving the former filed under A for “As if”, but I’ve always shied away from goals that are imposed on me. I’m not terribly interested in buying a house, maintaining a stock portfolio or losing weight. Other people are, and that’s cool, but it really bothers me when they assume I’d be into the same sort of thing.
So I guess I wanted to try and formalise my goal setting because throughout my life I’ve always felt other people looking down their Rather Adult noses at me because I’m not Terribly Mature. As I mentioned above, sometimes my goal for the day is simply surviving and I feel these little goals are persistently overlooked as unimportant and if you’re like me and have disabilities, a keen disinterest in keeping up with the Joneses, and aptitudes that veer away from the mainstream, you can feel as if your goals and the passions that populate your life aren’t worth much.
I think that my goals should be worth a lot, especially in this recovery period in the wake of a rather bollocks few months. I want to feel like I have some measurable and realistic goals to cross off, and also some other slightly hard to measure ones too that I can be mindful of and work towards. If I can get to New Year’s Day in 2012 and reflect on this list and the stuff I’ve achieved, I hope to feel a stronger sense of confidence and self worth.
Things I want to accomplish before the beginning of 2012
- Ride down to the shops on my bike by myself.
- Make a padded headboard for our bed.
- Paint a mural on our bedroom wall.
- Go to an art gallery every month.
- Grow my nails long enough to do a french manicure.
- Design and sell a new piece of jewellery.
- Hold a nail painting party.
- Get my back tattoo touched up.
- Start my sleeve tattoo.
- Dye my hair turquoise.
- Hold an event for SEQ fatties.
- Sort out my recipe book.
- Finish my first scrapbook.
- Revamp my two bookcases.
- Sell stickers of my art.
- Write a business plan.
- Charge what I’m worth.
- Return the books I have that belong to other people.
- Make a new friend.
- Catch a train from the Gold Coast to Brisbane.
- Make new art.
- Finish my first cross stitch.
- Write ideas down in my sketchbook more often.
- Take action on the ideas in my sketchbook.
- Undergo Cognitive Behavioural Therapy.
- Be nice to myself. Engage in positive self talk and commit to dedicated self care.
- Support other people more.
- Make a dress.
- Adopt a puppy.
- Write a zine. Gather all previous zine content and just do it!
It was quite nice sitting down to collect all the loose goals and ideas flinging around my head. If you’ve got 10 minutes I really recommend writing your goals down. Even if they “seem” silly, but are secretly really special and important to you, write them down. I bet it’ll make achieving way more achievable. And if you’d like to share, please do!